I just read something that broke my heart.
So now I feel the need to write about it. I am not writing this post to attack Christians. I consider myself a believer in and follower of Christ. But something has GOT to change in the way Christians live there life. Because the way the majority of us are living now is not working… for anyone.
What I read was a facebook post from a guy in Chi Alpha who recently decided not to follow christ anymore. And I am going to include some quotes from it to show why we need to love better.
“During my time at Current Church, people said they loved me and cared about me, but then as soon as sunday was over it was like I didn’t exist. There was a gap between the way they talked and the way they acted. When I left for BSU I just left it up to the fact the there are alot of people who went to Current and it’s easy to forget about some weird kid with a tree on his arm. At BSU i became involved with Chi Alpha and i noticed the exact same thing. People say that they love you and want to be involved in your life, but they dont really mean it. I think people deserve better than fake words and dead promises. If i tell someone i love them, I want to mean it and really be a part of their life. ”
“if Christians read the bible, and thats their intake. So they read and design how they live their lives according to this book. Solid. Okay so lets take a look at what is coming out of them as a result of this Intake. Okay so people are friendly, Very nice on a first impression and you can tell what theyve been importing. But it stops there. People are just friendly, with no other, deeper relationship that creates something or moves peoples hearts”
Okay, so thats the gist of it. I wanted to post what he said to make a point. Because I and other people I know have felt this way too.
One of my old roommates, a bible study leader in Cru, said she felt uncomfortable and like an outsider every time she went to Cru. So she stopped going. I roomed with four other girls I met in my freshman year Cru bible study before, and we all kind of… stooped going to Cru for the most part. I had lunch with my friend Janie recently and we talked about Cru. She said her current roommates, who she met through Cru, didn’t go anymore either and she didn’t want to go alone. This is a quote from her “Its like I know people there and they say hi and are nice, but no one invites you to sit with them.” So I invited Janie to Chi Alpha and told her that people were not really like that in Chi Alpha… then reading what this guy wrote kind of broke my heart.
This is what people are like. Not just people in a specific Church, or Christian group. Not just Christians. People are like this everywhere. This is our sin-nature at work. People are self-focused and selfish. This is not just a Christian proublem. This is a people problem.
But shouldn’t christans be different?
We can not love better out of our own strength. We don’t have too. We have Christ. We have the Holy Spirit inside of us.
So why the disconnect?
Thats what i’m asking you, Christians. Thats what i’m asking myself.
Are Christians allowing christ to kill there old selves and give them a new self, or are Christians just allowing God to polish them up a bit and make them nice people who don’t swear.
Because more than God wants us to go to church every sunday or read our bible every day, God wants us to love people. Love draws people to itself, so if you are sharing the love of God it will draw people to him.
Like he said, If i tell someone i love them, I want to mean it and really be a part of their life.
Because people want to be loved and not just respected, tolerated or saved. Christ’s whole life was about love.
Because really one cares what you tell them.
What are we showing the world?
“Your love for one another will prove to the world that you are my disciples.”- John 13:35
John 13:35 “
I’ll just do whatever I want, say whatever I want, think whatever I want, act however I want. I’ll stop apologizing too. I’ll stop putting on an act for others, and I’ll especially stop clamming up. I’m worth the time of day. I am interesting, and not just trivially cute. I have worth, I have depth. I can conquer anything I put my mind to.
I can’t stand my handwriting.
Thank goodness for the digital age… typing allows me to forget about it from time to time. But whenever I have to fill out something or sign my name anywhere it shows up and reminds me of itself. Whenever I write in a journal or notebook it’s there.
I don’t have elegant penmanship. My handwriting is messy and looks a half step above child scribbles to me. So much so that in elementary school teachers would make me rewrite things to get it right. So much so that I sometimes write myself notes and then read them, confused as to what I originally said.
I think if you watch people enough you can tell what their handwriting will probably look like. Some people are just so neat. There life is neat, there room is neat, there smiles are neat, their clothes and thoughts and aspirations are neat. Of course there handwriting is most likely neat as well.
I was just thinking of some people I met who were like that… a couple in their mid-twenties. One of them could speak three languages and had been to three countries. She also had an amazing singing voice. They were really nice and sweet… but it was more than that. I couldn’t help admiring their neatness. They did everything well.
Sometimes I want to be like that, but I am not neat. My mind moves a million miles a second. I put effort into things that don’t work out. I fail. I try again. I make messes and mess up. I sing poorly, and yet still sing. I overthink everything. I laugh and I try to love people with all the love God has given me. But sometimes I don’t. Sometimes, I am selfish. I am inspired by everything and everyone. I am hopeful. Nothing keeps my attention for an extended period of time. I want to travel the world. I want to sit at home in my pajamas. I want to run a marathon and I want to take a nap… at the same time and with equal enthusiasm.
I am somewhat of a perfectionist, and the perfectionist in me likes to get things right. I am learning that the same grace that God has given me, I need to also give myself. I am learning to be patient with the messy.
How much different our walks with Jesus would look if we fully allowed ourselves to be overtaken by these three verses.
“You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.” - Song of Solomon 4:9
“Instead of your shame you shall have double honor, And instead of confusion you shall rejoice in your portion. Therefore in your land you shall possess double; Everlasting joy shall be yours.” - Isaiah 61:7
“You have stolen My heart, My sister, My bride; you have stolen My heart with one glance of your eyes, with one jewel of your necklace.” - Song of Solomon 4:7
"There are three things that are too amazing for me,
four that I do not understand:
the way of an eagle in the sky,
the way of a snake on a rock,
the way of a ship on the high seas,
and the way of a man with a young woman."